The Big Decision.

Welp- I know you must all be severely disappointed that funny Danielle is taking a break- but underneath that sarcasm and wit, there is a very deep side of me that has thoughts, writes haiku's in my spare time and has an intense passion for ballet.

All of those things were a lie.. BUT. It is time for another deep blog. And.. just before I start. I don't want to be judged, asked why, told OH NO, not again, I told you so's or ANYTHING. I am happy with my decision!

Today I decided to quit school. hahahaha actually it does make me laugh- it seems to be what I do. But I put my whole heart into this one! For reals people. I worked with an boy with autism in Edmonton, and I loved it! So I applied for the program Special Needs Educational Assistant- I was excited! I went, and it was a pretty heavy course load, which is fine, but it all based on children. My practicums would be with kids, it just wasn't what I thought. I enjoyed working with Anthony because he was older and I could connect with him better. I'm not that great with kids, I won't lie. The thought of being in an elementary school for the rest of my life really freaked me out. Its been a very very very long 2 1/2 weeks of miserable time trying to enjoy school. I can't do it! Its as simple as that.

Today was probably the worst day in the entire universe- Now.. prepare yourselves. You are about to read something I will probably never be willing to type again!!! I cried for almost the WHOLE day. I don't cry. Thats why its so amazing, and the fact that i'm admitting it.. hahaha oh dear. I just lost it. I broke down and just couldn't stop! Nothing was making me happy about this program and I was tired of trying. So the Jean in ALL her wiseness, told me I can't force myself to do something I'm not happy doing. It took a lot of thinking and tears, but I've come to the conclusion that I will not be carrying on! I'm going to miss all the friends I saw there, the girls in my program and sleeping in the library. But I know there is something out there for me, I just need to be patient and find it! I'm staying in Lethbridge tho! Its not L-town I hate, I just disliked my program and what it was doing to me!

So, please understand that I'm not a quitter because I have no motivation or I'm just too lazy. I wasn't happy- and I think in the long run thats what matters. I have hopes to go back to school for something I will just love one day! Til then, I shall journey down this path we call life. Thanks for listening to my rant. I will now be a happier blogger!! Peace.